I feel betrayed


Deep in my memories I cry to my fears as they continue to grow


Forever clapping for the show


In the darkness


I feel betrayed
By shadows that consume my wants and desires, they have the power to take whatever it is I cannot afford to buy


my love, my dreams, my passions


I feel betrayed


By so many souls


I feel betrayed


By wrong answers


I feel betrayed


By too many pains in my heart


I...feel...betrayed


Like a tune now stuck in my head


This is the position I tread


Losing all the ability to grasp your mind


Or control your eyes


Or begin to understand you, understand me


I feel betrayed that something so beautiful is so far away


I feel betrayed that you just cannot stay


With me...


You come when I'm gone and leave when I arrive


Like portals of fantasy you are the invisible drive


That passes in the swiftness and torment of my tears


You never try to rescue me from whatever appears


I scream for your attention that you should give me a chance


But you come when I'm gone and leave when I arrive


In the corners of my life you hide with no suprise


You will always be going when I come and leaving when I arrive


You look away and listen to everything not in my eyes





I drain colour


Lose armor


Gain a pale complexion of a breaking connection


Wires of love have been cut but


Leaving exposed nerves of feelings too painful to not


Kill


And it's easy


I mean...


You come when I'm gone and leave when I arrive


It's easy to slit my hopes into 2


Shatter the hurt into 4


Tear the loss into millions of fresh emotions soon to die in my arms


I breathe for your amazing charge


I beg for this romance that could be... so large


But


I feel betrayed


When I remember


We are in different directions


You will always come when I'm gone and leave when I arrive

But I think I love you more and more everyday
I think I want you more and more each day
I think I cry too many hours in my soul
I think I cannot forget how painful is my fall
I think I remember all the time what it feels like to never be noticed in you
I think I know how hard it's going to be to stop wishing for you
I think I've learned what it feels like to be betrayed...by you...